First off, so many of you have asked if everything has been okay because of the lack of blog posts lately. Thanks to all of you who kept checking in and continue to lift prayers. In short, it’s been a couple years of reflecting, healing, learning, changing, forgiving, loving, adjusting, growing, discerning,… Ya’ll know how much the devil loves to whisper throughout all of this to attempt to throw us off. For today, writer’s block has been pushed aside, and I’m going to enjoy sharing a little while Micah is napping. (Hip hip hooray!)
Exactly What This Momma Needed
Tired. Just “off.” Mind wandering. Asking questions. Hormones. Weird dreams. Still loving and trying to figure out this awesome journey of His gift He gave me of being a mother. Confused. Tears. Smiles.
Let’s just say I woke up exhausted instead of well-rested. Or maybe some would say I woke up on the “wrong side of the bed.” (I know that’s never happened to any of you before; this was a first for me. ; ))
I have many happy places so to speak, but these past few days, I’ve been enjoying one of them…the lake! The peace. The calm waters. Water skiing. Micah and his part fish self and his love for the water, too. Busyness. Tubing and swimming with my little guy. Again…what a mixture!
One of our favorite things is to go riding on the boat. Sometimes fast; sometimes slow. This morning, my little munchkin wanted to ride on his mommy’s lap, head on my chest, all snuggled up for at least 20 minutes. Boy, did this momma cherish every second! (This hasn’t happened in probably a year in a half...and he did it TWICE today, once this morning and another time this evening.). I couldn’t help but think “does he feel ok?” at first.
Micah is perfectly fine. He’s been his jovial, non-stop, fun self. I think he was feeling exactly what I was…he needed me, and I needed him. I just smiled and held him tight as we went “bump, bump, bump” over the waves.
Not only did my little Boogaboo help keep me going today, but this moment (like so many others) brought me right back to God. God is always with me (and you). He has us in the palm of His hand. He wraps us in His loving arms. He wants that relationship and time with us. He answers prayers and questions in His timing. Isn’t it awesome to be able to lean on His promises ALL OF THE TIME...during the good, awesome, weird, and challenging times?
Joshua 1:9, "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."